Good Morning Spark people :)
Since I have rejoined spark I have been making slow but steady progress and am doing pretty good with tracking my calories and eating only nutritious foods however exercise has been a struggling point for me. It is odd because since I'm down 40 sum pounds working out comes easier to my body but its just getting my mind to get up a go that is the problem. This week I have managed to workout (for at least 30mins) every day but Wed. and am pretty proud of myself, I'm even feeling that good "I worked out hard" sore feeling
This last 25-30 lbs that I have on me is just not budging as easily as the first 40 and I have to admit its getting a little frustrating. My body is just very different from other people. I've also been fighting myself over the scale- when to weigh? when not to weigh? eghh sooo confusing! I know that some people on spark weigh every day and some every week. I used to be a every weaker however I've been so impatient lately I have been weighing every day which is NOT a good idea for my body! For some reason I always weigh 2-3 LBS more the next morning following a intense cardio workout however the next day I will be down those 2-3 LBS plus another 1-2 but even knowing this it gets me totally bummed seeing that I weighed more this morning than I did yesterday despite going to the gym last night for 50 mins and burning 600+ calories and eating with in my calorie range and not eating past 6pm (except a little after workout snack of peas and cheese.)
So with that being said, I'm ditching the scale for one week! I will not weigh myself until my next official weigh in on Saturday April 16th, that means that I am skipping tomorrows weigh in that I had planned and for the next week my focus is going to be:
Doing a minimum of five 60 min. cardio sessions
2. Staying within my calorie range and cycling between the low and high ends.
3. Staying towards the low end of my carb and sodium intake.
Drinking nothing but water (I have been averaging 10 glasses a day!)
Not eating past 6pm
NO FAST FOOD!!!
I just need to get this weight off! I have already come so much further than I ever thought possible. When I first started spark I would look at the success stories and wish that they where me and you know what they are! Even though I'm not to my goal YET I have gained so much and lost so much (all the bad stuff including the weight!). I put together a mid-progress photo. I cant believe how big I was!
My husband found the before picture in his phone and I almost cried when I saw it. I never realized that I was that big
It makes me so sad because when I look at that picture I should be focusing on how happy my son is to be in the pool with me but instead all I can think about is how I wish I could photo shop myself down or even cut myself out :( Well that was than and this is now!
So today is going to be a challenge for me but I'm looking forward to coming out of it with more will power and strength! I got invited to go out with some friends tonight and since I haven't been drinking or going out I decided last night that I would do it! So, last night I planned my meals for today and included two crown royal and diet coke cocktails into my calorie range. I made my shrimp salad for lunch and had a nutritious breakfast and even packed my dinner so that I could eat it at 5:00pm before I leave work. So this morning I woke up feeling positive that I would not go off track even if I go out tonight and have two cocktails, I managed to get a session of Jillian's Yoga Meltdown in before work, had four glasses of water before I even got into the office and I was feeling on top of the world.... Here comes the downer- I opened up my email inbox when I got in and guess what? That's right folks,
to celebrate a co-workers birthday for lunch in the conference room! yay! huh boo is more like it! So without completely giving up on the day and than hating myself tomorrow I've decided to forge forward with my original plan and completely skip the birthday lunch. I have a shrimp salad I made this morning and a vegan corn dog with steamed veggies for dinner :) I'm going to email the co worker whose bday it as and wish her a happy day and say that I am going to be volunteering to hold the fort down with the phones instead of coming to lunch, that way its not about it being her birthday and me missing it, its about me wanting to help out so that everyone else can enjoy
. I mean really do I not already know what pizza and cupcakes taste like? Will I die or be in dier straits if I dont partake in the festivities? Nope and I will still be able to go out tonight and enjoy two cocktails and unwind with my friends! Now its just sticking to it :)
Thanks for reading
I am currently at 165.5 and would like to be at 159 by April 16th. So lets get this seksie train a rollin!