Thursday, April 07, 2011
2 days ago I asked my roommate to hide the scale. Why you ask!! Well I've become addicted to the scale. Yes addicted!!
I wake up, walk into the bathroom & hop on. I'm not even fully awake while I do this. And the number on the scale somehow determines how I feel about myself for the day. Seriously..I'm not even fully awake yet!! But if the numbers down - I'm happy, if it's up - I feel defeated. So I needed to
this pattern. It hasn't been easy not knowing the number on the scale. But I've decided I'm only going to weigh in once a month (when I do my measurements). I'm going to gauge the rest of the month with my clothes & energy levels.
How did I come to this conclusion??
It all started last weekend when I went through & tried on ALL my clothes. I got rid of ALL my big clothes (except for 1 outfit that I wore when I was my at my largest. I keep that for a reminder of how far I've come) & clothes that don't look good on my anymore. And when I say "rid" I mean, my friends go through them, take what they want & I donate the rest. Needless to say I didn't have much left in my closet or drawers. So I pulled out a bag I had set aside a few years ago. It has all the summer clothes that I swore I'd fit into last year (never happened). Well I tried them all on & they all fit. I couldn't believe it. I was so happy!!! It's like I have a whole new wardrobe & it didn't cost me a thing!! WOOHOO!!!
Then the next day I weighed myself & the number was up. I was frustrated. That same day I read an article on SP about being addicted to the scale & realized I have a problem. How can I let some device ruin how good I felt fitting into clothes I haven't wore in years. So my relationship with my scale has ended after a 5 year hate/love affair.