Wednesday, April 06, 2011
I started reading The Spark last night, and I have to say it has inspired me, not only on the weight loss front, but also on my other goals. Since I was a kid, I've had one dream, one goal: to write a novel. It's the thing my heart desires more than anything, the one thing I really need to accomplish before I die to make my life successful.
I know all this and always have. The thing is, every time I start to push toward that goal, I put up my own roadblocks to keep me from reaching it. When I was an undergrad, I started out as an education major, thinking I would teach and write, but as I got further in the program - and spent some time in a high school - I realized that really wasn't what I wanted to do. I switched my major to English so that I could just focus on writing, but my junior year, I got scared. Graduation was coming, and my bestseller wasn't even started, let alone ready to send off to publishers, so I switched my major to communications, an area that promised a job but also used my writing skills.
After college, I worked as a journalist. It wasn't the best paying job, but I was writing every day - and making money at it. I racked up a couple of awards for my work, but I still wasn't happy. I knew I wanted to write a novel; I'd even devised a game where we would turn our story topics into romance novel synopsises. So, I quit my job and headed to a creative writing graduate program.
For once, I was on track with my writing. I actually completed about four chapters of the novel I want to write and received good reviews from my peers on my work. It seemed like I actually might complete my goal.
But then it happened. That old fear crept up on me. I started teaching freshman courses and taking classes in teaching, and I liked it, and there was a promise of a greater possibility of a job at the end of my studies, and so I changed my concentration. And then, to make matters worse, I got a second job.
My life has been dominated by teaching and school work, and I have lost focus of my goal of writing a novel. But reading The Spark has made me realize I need to put this dream back into perspective. I need to visualize my goal, make a plan, and accomplish it.
So I'm writing it down right here. My long term goal is to finish my novel. My mid-term goal is to complete chapter five. My daily goal is to write for just ten minutes (Ten minutes a day! I spend more time than that deciding what to wear!)
I know I have a lot on my plate, but I can't make excuses if I really want to accomplish this, and I do. More than anything.
Thank you, Spark, for helping me to better my life. For helping me to regain focus. For helping me to realize it's okay to follow my dreams.