Wednesday, April 06, 2011
Ok, I did it! I finished Phase 1 of the program. What does that mean? It means that I did 24 workouts. It means that every time I did a workout I used heavier weights than the last time. It means that for 24 days I stood shoulder to shoulder with all those beefcakes at the gym and we all watched ourselves in the mirrors as we lifted. I think that's the part I'm proudest of. I had to reason through my fear of being seen and judged by healthier people and then I had to, in spite of my queasy stomach and shaky hands, ask if they were done with the squat bar. Ya know, not one of them was ever unkind to me. I never heard a snicker or under-the-breath joke. They did watch me, but I guess I got the sense that they were just curios (I always had a list with me and worked out with the focus of an olympic athlete.), or even proud of me for working as hard I was. Whatever they were thinking, it doesn't matter because I stopped noticing after a while. After a while it was they who were working out in MY gym, cause I owned those dead lifts!
All in all, this program has been a good thing for me. I haven't lost much, in terms of inches, but I feel so strong. When I put my hands on my waist and back, or when I look down at my thighs when I'm climbing stairs, I can see my hard work all over my body. I don't even recognize my arms and shoulders anymore and have become quite vain, as I spend a lot of time touching them and watching them in the mirror. Bring on tank top season!
Ok, here are the stats.
Starting Stuff: Feb. 21, 2011
Today, after 6 weeks:
See, except for the weight, there wasn't as much of a change as I hoped for. As I said in Part 1 of this blog, the increased calories was a problem. It's almost like it gave my old brain and thought processes just the wiggle room they were looking for to muck things up a bit. It took me about 3 weeks to regain control over my calories and find a range that worked for me. Could I have lost more weight and inches if I hadn't lost that control in the first place? Doesn't matter, I can't afford to play that game. I'm starting Phase 2 next week and now I know how to handle myself and my calories. That's all that matters.
So, onward and upward. Or is it downward?
Dear Liz of Feb 21st,
Thank you. I know these aren't the results you had daydreamed about, but I'm not disappointed. You started something and saw it through to the end, even when you got bored and tired and unhappy with the results. Thank you for doing it anyway. Thank you for caring enough about your future to sacrifice your time and running ambitions. It payed off. I'm stronger and more fit, and that, my dear Liz, is why we are doing this. This is a victory and you are the victor.