Wednesday, April 06, 2011
That would be a fear of actually doing this business of being healthy and fit. Evidently after hitting below 200 pounds something in me switched off. I haven't been tracking my nutrition and haven't been working out as much. I feel gross. I haven't gained anything but I have lost so much and I am not talking about pounds or inches.
I have lost my drive to do this, I have lost energy, I have lost muscle tone and I have lost quality of sleep. I have lost the strong sense of who I am that I had. Maybe lost is a strong word. Misplaced might be better. I know I can take them back. It wouldn't take much and I want to. I just need to do it. I need to let myself feel okay about taking my body back.
One foot in front of the other. One food entry at a time. One more mile. I deserve to be fit and healthy. I can allow time in my schedule for me. It makes me a better individual.