Tuesday, April 05, 2011
Been dealing with a lot of huge decisions lately regarding all sorts of things. In short, though, my husband and I have been feeling for awhile that our current church is not a good fit for us and we just don't feel like it's our "family" or our "home". Therefore, we finally got our courage up and made the decision to leave. This is difficult. We are nervous, scared, excited, confused...all rolled up into one. If you've never been a really integral part of a church, you might not understand why this is such a big deal for us. But it really is. It's such a big part of our lives and leaving people you care about is never easy, even if there are only a few that you feel a lot of affection for in the bunch. It really does feel, in some ways, like a divorce. We went through all of this just 2 years ago. That one happened to be a very healthy, very friendly divorce and we have been able to hold onto a lot of those relationships and they have remained. This one will likely not be so friendly and not be so clean. And that is why we are nervous.
So, in all that...I am so thankful for my health. That I have been working this past month to take care of myself and learning how to use exercise as a stress relief outlet and not see it as torture. If I didn't have the opportunity to let off steam and think about things while I'm being active, I don't know that I'd make it through this without sinking into depression.
I'm so thankful for this journey. So many new things are happening. And it is all good. If you're the praying sort, we sure could use some prayer right now.