Tuesday, April 05, 2011
My progress with the stress busting challenge had to go a bit slower the past week as I've been out with strep throat. I thought it was just a sore throat since I had been having a sore throat one and off for the two week before hand. But then I stayed up really late at a friends house, where the whole family had just recovered from strep themselves, and I'm guessing I picked it up. My husband's system seemed to fight it off valiantly, but I woke up three days later after that late night with throat tissue so red and swollen it looked like a giant piece of raw steak was lodged back there or something. My energy overall was fine till I started on the antibiotics and the I guess the recovery process required loads of my energy and I felt wiped. And I just wasn't thinking clearly either.
Yesterday I was finally feeling kinda myself and for some reason the whole incident seemed to throw me off- I was feeling the pull of depression, discouragement, anxiety, etc. I think having the body invaded, unpredictable, was kinda triggering. Feels silly in some ways, even though it makes sense.
Yesterday I almost went into binge mode- I did not follow my meal plan, but it wasn't an utter relapse, so I'm not going to count it :) (I mean, I'm 43 days strong!) I won't count it because 1) I didn't over eat too much 2) I caught myself 3) I feel no guilt today! which means the cycle is broken.
The incident did remind me the need to be regular in practicing stress-reduction techniques so that I naturally use them at ever-higher levels of stress. I hadn't been sick for a while, and I wasn't prepared for it to be such a downer :)-
So for the second week of the stress busting challenge (on my schedule, who says you only need to take a month? Some challenges are harder than others, and may take more time... while at the same time I wouldn't want tot get caught in a mindset of having to do it perfectly, that would defeat the purpose, woudln't it?) these are the goals I have:
1. Use the box system each day for tracking my exchange meal plan (helps clear my brain and stops me from being overly critical of how much I am eating)
2. Do a mood log each day (for real)
3. Continue to take baths as needed to decompress, read a short story
4. Finally order the relaxation tape my counselor recommended (i'm not much into these sorts of things, but she had me try it a couple times in session and it really does work. and only takes 15 minutes. i think i can find fifteen minutes to wind down if I'm getting anxious)
5. follow my wo schedule