Monday, April 04, 2011
So, a few months ago, I lost down to the smallest I have been since I had my children: 148 pounds. I achieved my goal through a combination of watching what I ate on SparkPeople and training for a half marathon. I felt amazing!
But then I ran that half marathon, and I got busy with school and work and my kids. I knew I was gaining weight, but I wasn't ready to face the number. Last week, I weighed for the first time in a couple months. I was up seven pounds. Today, when I stepped on the scales, I was up a total of eight from my all time low.
Despite knowing I had gained weight, I held onto the 148 on my weight tracker. I couldn't stand to let that number go.
But there's no motivation when I can't lose till I get back to my lowest point. I was trapped behind a number that wasn't real.
So, today, I changed the tracker to my real number. It wasn't a pleasant experience, but it needed to be done. If I'm ever going to lose, I have to be real with myself, and changing the number was the first key to doing that.
I am further from my goal, but really I was anyways. By keeping the fake number, I was just lying to myself. Now I can look at the real situation and make a plan to fix it.
I have to keep going, keep tracking. I lost the weight once, I'll do it again. Plus more.
I'm motivated and ready to do this thing. For real. :)