Sunday, April 03, 2011
I sort of thought I was over the eating disorder thing. I thought I was on the right meds to keep the bipolar in check, so why would the eating disorder come back?
Back in partial (and now that I think about it, also in inpatient, IOP and just about any other group I've done) they told me I was in the early stages of recovery, and that I would always be in recovery. Sort of like how an alcoholic (according to AA at least) will always be an alcoholic.
So that nasty bug has bitten me once more, but I know I'm not in early recovery anymore, because this time I feel strong enough to fight it. For more than a week now I've spent every evening fighting urges to use behaviors. In the past I would have done it in an instant, without a second thought. Now I fight. And successfully! I've made it this long without giving in, maintaining a seven month streak free of those unhealthy behaviors.
I thank SparkPeople for giving me the motivation to fight against those urges and the tools to use to make sure I stay on a healthy track.