Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Today, I'm starting over.
Yesterday doesn't matter.
Last week's weight gain is irrelevant.
Today is my fresh start day, and it's going great!
I joined a new Spark Team today, as part of my fresh start. I've never been good about asking for help - of any kind. I'm a self-sufficient type. It's not that I don't ever think I need help...
We all have ĎThat Friendí. The one that is never around until *she* needs something, then sheíd do anything for you - just as soon as you help her: move/write a research paper/explain an unexpected pregnancy to mom/rewrite a resume/find a better job/get that promotion/get into grad school/study for the CPA exam...
You know who I'm talking about. You never know what or when her next crisis will be, and the only thing you *can* count on is that, at some point, she will whirlwind back into your world, nevermind what's going on in your life (she really can't be bothered with that when her life is in perpetual shambles), and expect you to solve her latest earth-shattering calamity, and then just as quickly - *POOF* - gone again. Not to be seen or heard from or found on Facebook until the next disaster.
I have lots of these friends - and a mom and sister... I'm kind of the go-to catastrophe-averter in my world. Which can be stressful and exhausting. But at least itís better than being ĎThat Friendí. I donít ever want to be ĎThat Friendí.
So thatís why I donít ask for help. On SparkPeople, Iím afraid that Iíve been silent too long to ask my team for support.
Iím not much of a joiner. Catastrophe-averting is exhausting and I sometimes feel like I have to conserve my energy for the next emergent tragedy. Also, since Iíve evidently been blessed with a propensity to attract ĎThat Friendí, I sometimes hold back for fear of collecting another one.
So when I hit a roadblock, I havenít contributed enough (sometimes any) witty, motivational, supportive posts to earn the support of my team members. Probably the only thing worse than being ĎThat Friendí would be to be ĎThat Friendí and have the catastrophe-averter ignore your calls.
But none of that matters today.
Today is a fresh start.
I joined a new team today. When I get home from work this evening, Iím going to post an introduction to my new team. And Iím going to be a joiner this time. Because I do need the support. Iím not going to worry about collecting another ĎThat Friendí. Iím just going to make sure Iím not afraid the catastrophe-averter will ignore my call. Because I do need the support. And I canít possibly be the only catastrophe-averter on the planet. Right?