Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I called in sick today. I am sick, and I've been sick for about 3 weeks now. I was have basically been sick off and on since mid February. I have been working a full 40 hour job and another evening job since Jan. 31st. Tuesdays and Thursday I work 8 in the morning until 8 in the evening (MWF it's 8-4:30). It is a doable schedule, but I think it's been wearing me down and lowering my immune system. I find I eat more on those days. I finally quit the second job yesterday. I figured it's time to start taking better care of myself. From April 2008 until April of 2010, I lost 167 pounds. From April 2010 until today, I gained 28 pounds. I went from being 23 pounds away from goal, to being 50 pounds away from my goal. That is not the direction that I want to keep moving in. Now I am not going to beat myself up over it. I had an unemployed husband for a good 7 months of 2010, and my work hours have been way more than I worked before. I did a lot of things that I had to do. I have grown in many ways this year. I have been under a lot of stress this last year. It has been a difficult year for several reasons, but it hasn't been all bad. I do feel like I am a stronger person emotionally these days. Now I realize it's time to start taking better care of my body again. I will be gaining 7 hours of free time soon, and I plan to put those hours towards good stuff like exercise, family time, and even a few more hours of sleep. Hopefully, my immune system will thank me for this.
I am going to be turning 40 in December. There are a few things I want to do before 40. I am hoping to reach that goal weight in the next 9 months or be within 10 pounds of it. I am planning to run my first marathon in October. I have never been to Europe, and I am planning a trip to Paris in August with a good friend. I want to look cute when I am there, so I'd like to lose that weight I gained this year by August. Hopefully, I can pull it all back together, and get myself back in shape and on the right path again. I have felt better in the last few years, then I did in my 20's and early 30's, when I weight 300 plus pounds. I am hoping to enjoy my 40's, and to live my life to the fullest. I want to be a happy and healthy and well rested 40 year old. I want to work less and live more.