Monday, March 28, 2011
I suddenly just want to quit this. I dont get it.. I've been so motivated. I was so great last week, and I guess in the past few days I've just gotten worse and worse.. I mean, I didnt go crazy. I still ate within my calorie range, just on the higher end of it... except for today, when I definitely went over. and that's making me feel terrible because I always tried not to go above the middle ground of my range...
And I didn't work out hard today even though I went to an aerobics class.. it was just a weak workout... and all of that combined is just making me lose focus..
my roommates arent helping... they eat everything they want... and it's not even fair, especially since social activities often revolve around eating. like, I skipped hanging out with my friend today because I had to go workout.... and I'm tired of getting large salads when my friends get sandwiches or pizza and giant bowls of ice cream. And I especially want to snack on cereal and m&ms at night, but I cant and it sucks...
This always happens, though.. I'm doing so great, and then I start thinking to myself, 'I'm fine the way I am. why do I need to do this? I'm tired of it. it's not worth it." happens every time... but I DO need to do this! I don't believe myself when I type that right now, but I know i've been wanting to lose weight for as long as I can remember.. and I'm finally doing it.. and it's slow and annoying and I'm tired of it.. but I need to do it..
none of that is registering, though... I feel like giving up... ugh how do I change this?
Is my whole thing ruined now that I've gone way over my limit for a day?