Wednesday, March 23, 2011
I know I've written many blogs about being back and on track- then I fall off. Well this time I really mean it. Those blogs before, were more or less me trying to convince myself that i'm back. But now I firmly believe that i am. I'm counting calories and working out as before. It's been months since i've been this dedicated and I'm only on day three. I call this "hell week" that first week when you get back to being serious about weight loss. Oh yeah..it's pain. After working out two nights in a row I feel like i've been hit by a truck! Ugh! It makes it hard to get back to the gym, but i know i'll get through this as i always have. I will be better for it. I can't wait to meet my goal weight!
Matt and I have talked so much about our future together- marriage...family...careers. I don't want to feel uncomfortable about my body during all of that. I don't want to feel fat and ugly on my wedding day, and i certainly don't want to buy a wedding dress that fits. That's probably my biggest goal of all. An engagement is around the corner for us, and i don't have anymore time to fall off the horse. I need to get my butt in gear and finish this thing. :)
We decided that if either of us screws up and eats something bad...we have to do 100 situps and 30 pushups. We are going to hold each other to it. So..there's another motivation. I am also going to be eating more calories this time around- because 1100 just isn't healthy. Now i'm going to stay between 1300-1400. I just burn too many calories at the gym to eat so little. That was really burning me out. Who knows..maybe it caused my stomach issues.
Either way I am back, and Matt has started working hard to lose weight, and before we know it...we will be the people we always wanted to be. Healthy...Happy and Ready for the next steps in our relationship ;) - and in life! :)