Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Ugh, I don't feel good. I have had way too many pot lucks, events and eating out in the last week. Tonight, I also gave in to cravings and now I don't feel good or happy. I am writing this as a letter to myself so the next time I feel like giving all in, I will read this first:
You are Awesome!!! You have lost 157 pounds. You have lost almost as much as you weighed in high school. You have done that through working through your issues, getting your mind right, eating right, and exercising till you want to drop. It has been a long hard road - DO NOT GIVE UP!!! Too many times in your life, well let's be honest, almost always in your life, when it gets tough and you need to stick it out - YOU QUIT!!! You cannot quit on your life. Do you want to live and experience joy like you are now or go back to misery, unhappiness, can't walk and work/sleep and that was it. You have a great life now - full of life, fun, joy. You can do anything you put your mind to. You don't even think about the big things you used to - how far to walk to the entrance of a store, is that chair going to fit me, will I break this, how can I cover up the sweating while just standing, how long before I can sit down. People staring all the time. Now people stare for a different reason and people joke around and even flirt with you. This is the life you are destined for. God brought you through all of this for a reason to help others. You are a food addict, don't ever get too comfortable. Just remember 10 minutes later you will regret what you did. Start eating like the 140 pound skinny, strong, Nike girl you are on the inside. You are not only a Survivor, but you are Amazing. Don't give in or give up - You are stronger than any food. Believe in yourself and know this is 1 thing with God you can conquer. It is a day by day, minute by minute process and you got this. Keep moving, striving, forward. You have 64 pounds left - DON'T GIVE UP!!! You never thought you would get this far. The cookies, chips, chocolate won't make it better - you will still have the same feelings and regret it. DO NOT DO IT!!!