Tuesday, March 22, 2011
I've been checking in with all my spark friends and have noticed that no one seems to be blogging lately. I like to see how they are doing or what they are thinking and so often I find similar thoughts. I haven't blogged lately either and realized that the reason is because I didn't want to say that I am frustrated.
I have been really trying and not seeing any results lately. My hubby weighs me every Monday and this time I wanted to scream with anguish as I didn't lose anything for another week....
He keeps telling me that I look great and has even said numerous times that if I don't lose any more weight that I still look fabulous to him.
Losing the weight isn't about how he sees me. Its about me feeling healthy and being in the normal weight range for my height and age. Its about me achieving the goal I want. Its about getting thru these tough stretches and perservering. Its about taking control of my health in a way that is sustainable.
Of course I feel his love and support but sometimes our family and friends don't want to see us frustrated or hurting and say things or do things that literally don't make it easier. He even went out to the bakery and got me some pasteries. I didn't eat them. He is so very thin. He is trying to gain weight. I am buying all kinds of things to fatten him up and this makes it so hard for me because I can't purge my environment so its safe.
O well tomorrow is another day and I am going to keep blogging....