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I Feel Sexy

Monday, March 21, 2011

I realized today that, even though I've only lost 7 lbs so far (pssshhh....ONLY. That's a HUGE deal for me!), I am actually seeing a difference in my confidence and my self-esteem. Not only does my body feel great, I feel great about my body. I actually feel sexy for the first time in, well...I can't even remember. And, although I'm sure I don't really LOOK very different to the outside world, the change in my feelings regarding myself have got to be shining through. I feel like I am radiating energy and positivity.


I actually find myself excited to go out and shop for a cute outfit for this weekend's bout on Saturday. Instead of hiding in baggy clothes, I want to find something that fits well. I literally want to make people's jaws drop. I know this is possible, because there are girls in our league that are bigger than I am and all they do is put a little effort into their appearance. A little planning and a lot of confidence and they are...GORGEOUS.


This is so new. It's confusing. It's like something brand new awakening in me and I must admit, it's not without it's challenges. I still am not quite sure how to handle this feeling. It's got me thinking, "If I can succeed at this (health), could I succeed at anything I put my mind to?" And the possibilities of that are exciting...but also sometimes scary. I'm not used to guys noticing me...or desiring to be with me. As a married woman, I haven't had to deal with this issue before now.


I feel like a brand new person. Maybe it's not necessarily a new person...maybe it's the real ME that I've buried under layers of shame and guilt and food addiction and laziness. Quite honestly, whoever it is...I feel that it will be a journey in itself just to "get to know" this new person. I can tell you this, though...I can't wait to meet her!

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    emoticon This a fabulous blog ! Congratulations on finding your mojo !!! I'm sure you'll find some fabulous outfits that will flatter your figure and your new attitude !

    2460 days ago
    LOVE the attitude in this blog!! I wish I could be there to see you shake that booty during the bout in your cute new outfit and awesome new attitude!! Have FUN!
    2460 days ago
  • AWOOD1973
    Woohoo! Sexy is good! My goal is to feel great naked! emoticon I have a ways to go, but I'm getting there! Your husband will love you no matter what, but why not make him gawk at you! emoticon Great job! You are well on your way to a healthier, happier life!
    2460 days ago
    This blog made me so happy! I'm so glad that you're feeling better about yourself! And sexy.....who wouldn't want to feel sexier?

    Find a cute outfit, sex it up this weekend, and let your hubby's jaw drop!

    Oh, and just an fyi....you CAN succeed at whatever it is you want to do!
    2461 days ago
    Meet her....you silly thing....you are creating her! LOL

    While the first cat calls may make you want to shake your booty with joy, know that your choice for life is already your loudest cheerleader. Don't trade him in for the unknown....as the slim pickins' that are out there will probably be a step down or backwards. Keep building your life as you create her.

    Shopping....I LOVE shopping! Send us pictures of what you choose! We'd all love to see them, for sure.

    2461 days ago
    I hope your husband gets to enjoy the "new" you.

    When I lost weight the first time and I was single, I got really angry. I knew that some of the guys who talked to me were only talking to me because of how I looked and they wouldn't have even SEEN me if I were heavier.

    Keeping this in mind the men I was friends with before I lost the weight are my friends to this day. Just like your husband loved you before this change, you are lucky to have him through it all.

    2461 days ago
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