Monday, March 21, 2011
I just feel the need to blog, so am doing it instead of procrastinating it, because when I procrastinate it, I decide NOT to blog! :)
This weekend, especially Saturday, I worked long and hard on my schoolwork and as you may have read in my status, I got everything done Saturday evening before going to bed. It was all due on Sunday, by midnight and despite my desire to get ahead in my classes to lessen the stress, I took Sunday OFF homework. I kept looking at my lit. book though and just tole myself, you NEED this time off, so you can hit the books hard tomorrow.
Well, it's tomorrow and I started by getting up late and have spent time with God, have eaten lunch, am drinking water and have checked my e-mail and sparked some and am now blogging. When I finish, I will have approximately an hour to get started on my homework. I have been dreading it, so have wasted some time, or procrastinated some, but have been giving myself some pep talks about just doing it and it not being as hard as I imagine it to be, etc... The plan in schoolwork this week is to do week 3 & 4 in my lit class today and tomorrow and then get started on my professional writing course, late tomorrow and on Wednesday. If the literature gets to be overwhelming, I will switch to the writing course and vice versa. I DO have a deadline in both courses to have the discussion forums posted to by Wednesday, so I might have to adjust my schedule some there.
Yesterday was Sunday and as my pastor is out of town for a much deserved break, his brother preached yesterday morning about staying in the battle and doing what we are called to do. Last night, it was about patience and perserverence from another preacher in our church. Anyway, as he was calling us to the altar to pray last night, he told us to pray for that one person to be saved that God layed on our hearts. I immediately thought of Jarod, my son and I bawled at the altar the burden was so great. It's like sometimes the burden is so heavy, it physically hurts your heart. Anybody know what I am talking about? Anyway, in the midst of my burden and praying for my son, God spoke to me and said, "If you weren't saved and right with me, why would you have this great a burden for your son or anyone for that matter?" All of a sudden, the light bulb came on. Here I have been allowing satan to tell me I'm not right with God, I am not really saved because of this or that or whatever and I have been under this heavy oppression, etc... The truth of it is, I cannot make myself right with God, Jesus makes me right. I have accepted him as savior of my life and he died on the cross for my sins, my acceptance of that makes me right with God. Now, I may not be as obedient as I need to be, there may be areas I need to work on, but that does not mean I am going to hell. Although I do believe that disobedience is a sin that separates us from Him. It's hard to explain what I am trying to say, but now I see some of what I have been going through as what it is, oppression from the enemy and now that I see it, I can combat it with scripture and with God! I know I need to step up my efforts for God though, but now I feel able to!
Jonah stayed home from school today, he has these really weird red spots on him, some look like welts and some look like bad pimples (behind his ear and on his face) and some just look like red spots. My aunt who is a nurse, first thought it was staph infection, but then she thought maybe chicken pox because she has seen several cases of it even though the people have been vaccinated against it. He has an appointment this afternoon. I hated to send him to school not knowing what it was... Bekah also has some appointments this afternoon. So, I will be taking my school books with me and will be doing some reading so I can do the assignments online when I get home. Hopefully, I will be able to press through this evening with interruptions, etc...
I had better get busy on reading and doing what I can before Bekah gets home and I have to take them to the doc...