Monday, March 21, 2011
I definitely get myself into trouble (that all or nothing perspective where you really can't win for more than a day if you're honest with yourself), when I stop feeling like exercising. It would be one thing if I was 100 lbs over weight. 40 lbs isn't nothing, for sure that's still pretty significant. But the problem is that it's like my form of burn-out. I have maybe just a short attention span, but I've never been able to stick with one type of exercise for long. My longest streak of running on a semi-regular basis over the last 5+ years has been maybe 3 months at a time, at best. That's it. I've never kept it up longer than that. That's my longest record too. I have videos and aerobics and yoga and strength training and stair climbing and elliptical machines and walking and etc etc all under my belt for brief periods. I pretty much always come back to something.
In my happy new place I've come to mentally, it occurs to me this morning that this won't be the last time. In fact, this is a part of me, and so will surely be a part of my journey that I have to deal with. I have two options, I can try to force myself into exercising when I just don't want to knowing that whether I make myself do it or not I'll actually feel like doing it again soon enough. Or, I can accept that for now (however long now is) I could just be a dieter, not an exerciser. Not that I will abstain from physical activity, but I could just seek it out in my everyday of chasing children. Here's the key thing though:
I could make the conscientious effort to compensate for my break in seeking regular exercise by being on top of my eating, and even be a bit under my goal calories in order to stay on track with losing weight.
That's what I'm going to do. Who's to say that tomorrow I won't be running in the morning. I simply feel like I need to find a way to still be successful without exercising because I know myself and I know that I'm just not always going to be an exerciser. In fact I know for sure that I am going to wax and wane on that, and I rather like that part of my personality to be honest with you. So I'd like to learn how to make it work for me. I'll let you know how it goes.