Saturday, March 19, 2011
I have been eating like crazy again lately. I think I finally figured out why... It is all emotional eating to bury the sadness and anger that I have that my friend is leaving. My friend who was with me through the darkest hours of my divorce. My friend who I love and care about with all my heart like my sister. Why are you leaving? How can you do this to me? How come our friendship wasn't enough to keep you here? Questions that may never have answers to satisfy me.
My heart is breaking that you are leaving. I am so scared for you that things won't work out and I won't be there for you like you were for me. Just remember that I am always here for you and please try not to let him keep us from being friends.
I am so angry that you are leaving. Angry that you are running away. I feel as though you are making the biggest mistake of your life. But I can't tell you that. I am your friend and as your friend I will try and support you in anyway that I can, including keeping my mouth shut and letting you make your own mistakes. I just hope the road that I see you heading down doesn't end in disaster like mine did. At least I had you at the end of that road. You will be alone in your new town. But if you need me, let me know and I will come and help you pick up the pieces.
I will always be your friend. My love to you always Tiff! I will miss you with all my heart.