Saturday, March 19, 2011
I know - I've been MIA for a while now. Having trouble coming up with good blog ideas, quite honestly. Things have really picked up at work, I'm back to having hardly any nights to myself, and I'm about to take on another show - rehearsals start on Monday. I already feel like I've been slacking off a bit on the exercise front because I cut out one of my weekly runs in lieu of a salsa dance class that I've been taking. Cutting out that run on Tuesday mornings seems to have spilled over into Friday mornings as well though, as it's been increasingly harder to get out of bed on Fridays. I've skipped more Friday runs in the past few weeks than I have done, but to make up for that, I've been increasing the mileage on my Sunday runs, and many of you rejoiced with me a couple weeks ago when I hit my 10K distance a month ahead of schedule. So - I guess it's balancing out. Trying to take everything in stride. (Quite literally).
Despite everything not being perfect in food consumption, exercise, and sleep schedule, my body still seems to be cooperating on the weight loss front. *Knock on wood. I think I'm in line to be down another pound this week - fingers crossed. I want that 100 pounds lost sticker. I want it bad. But I realize that I may not hit it by my April 15th One Year Sparkversay. That's ok. I'll hit it shortly after. And then shortly after that, I'll hit my third "Year of the Ones" goal and enter Onederland a mere 13 pounds later. I have to keep reminding myself of this trifecta. It's going to be awesome, and it's all going to happen...really soon. But it will happen even sooner if I can get myself back on a regulated schedule, try to secure some more sleep hours for myself, and cut out the crap that has snuck back into my daily Nutrition Tracker.
None of that is going to happen this weekend. THIS weekend is the 2nd Annual Windy City Burlesque Festival at my theatre. For 2 days, every usable space in my building is taken over by some of the best burlesque performers in the world, shakin' their tail feathers...quite literally. When I left the theatre last night (or rather early this morning) at 3am, it looked like someone had murdered a rainbow chicken in the lobby. And it bled glitter. It is all kinds of awesome - but it's an absolutely exhausting weekend. I have a full slate of staff, including bar-backs (which is a luxury for my tiny little theatre bar), but I was still back there slingin' drinks last night and managing crowd control in the lobby. I got to sneak in to the midnight show to watch some of the performers, but the show itself didn't end until 2:30am, so it made for a VERY late night. I'm currently sitting in the office waiting to kick of night #2.
The cool thing about the art of Burlesque is that it isn't as judgmental as some other "vanity" art forms like modeling or film acting or some types of dancing. Don't get me wrong - these performers are all kinds of beautiful - but they're beautiful in a real "this is my body with all of its flaws and imperfections" kind of way. And yet the audience still cheers and hoots and hollers for more. These women (and men!) bare (almost) all of it every night for huge crowds who love them, love what they look like, and love what they do. There's heart in that. And it gives me added confidence just to watch these performers do what they do. It's very clear that no one has a perfect body - with a couple of delicious exceptions in my opinion - but finding beauty in curves is what makes a Burlesque performer great. If you have never been to see a Burlesque show, I highly recommend it. It's fun, it's sexy and it's not as risky as people may think. Most Burlesque shows involve comedy and other variety acts. The more "classical Burlesque" they are, the more old-timey they may feel with all kinds of other acts and entertainment. I think it's a great evening out. And it's just sexy enough to peak the interest of any significant other that you might decide to bring along on a date. Fun times indeed. But bottom line is that it's REAL. Be prepared to see body types that you wouldn't necessarily expect. And be prepared to think that they are totally hot!
Anyway - I've been working in the burlesque industry as a Producer for a couple of years now. It's outside of my regular job with the theatre - an extracurricular that started out as something fun to do and now has turned into an actual company and show of our own (I have a co-Producer who is also the director of the show). Most of our company is performing in the festival this weekend, and I couldn't be more proud to see them all up on those stages. They are all so beautiful and so talented!
Believe it or not, all of you who have ever visited my page already know my Burlesque name. Take a guess - it's been there all along. When I started with SparkPeople and was writing out my introduction, it was always in the back of my mind that if I could ever lose the weight and really be confident enough to master in the art of the striptease, I might actually employ that name one day. My opinions have changed since then - I won't ever be dancing on stage. Though I love to watch other performers, that aspect of performing isn't as interesting to me anymore (and it really has nothing to do with my body). But I do love my role as Producer. And I'll still use my name when I guest star in my own show as a songstress sometime in April or May. Looking forward to it!
Here's to confident women (and men!) everywhere who have the courage to bare themselves to the world. Even though I don't desire to take my clothes off for an audience, we all have a little bit in common. I'm mastering my own art of the striptease every day. Every pound I shed is like another layer of clothing to me. And by the time I get down to the bare minimum, I need to be confident enough in what's left to let it shine. And that's not as easy as it looks!