Short Lived Victory
Friday, March 18, 2011
On Monday I decided NO MORE JUNK FOOOD. Well I can proudly say that I am 4 days junk food free! It feels great! I don't even want the stuff when I see it!
I have been killing it with my workouts lately and been eating in Spark calorie range (been tracking! yay!). Tomorrow I am hoping for a good weigh-in. I am not going to set a goal of what I hope to lose, I just want it to be a loss!
Yesterday for St. Patty's Day, people brought green goodies and put them in the teacher's lounge. Normally that is my true downfall because my willpower tends to fail when I am in that room. Well, I went into the lounge, looked at all the bad food I love, took 1 grape, and left! I didn't go back the whole day! YAY!!! Yesterday was a great day...
I get home after a great afternoon of workout and sit down to have dinner with the family. My mom is good about fixing things I can eat and then I get other things out that I can have. Well they had fixed turkey tenderloin. I like eating that but first bite I could taste all the salt! I have really watched my sodium intake and can tell from one bite if something has a good amount of sodium in it. So through discussion, found out it was not the plain turkey tenderloin that my mother could have bought, but a flavored one that has more sodium. I made due, ate it, but drank more water. My brother decideds to pipe up and say "Is Nick (fiance) going to eat like you?" Well yes (and is looking forward to it I might add!). Then my brother, sister-in-law, mother, and father have this conversation about how everything I fix/eat or even do is nasty and stinky. I am sorry that I am trying to make myself healthy! Let me go stuff my face with what you all eat! They even picked on me about what I have that makes my foot better because it is in the freezer. So what!
Tomorrow I have my first wedding shower and I am starting to not want to have it. I am already expecting someone to say something about what I am either eating or not. I can't win with my family!
I just keep reminding myself - this is for me, this is for my future family. Screw those that aren't on board!