Thursday, March 17, 2011
So...I had an abnormal Pap test in December and tested positive for HPV. The frustrating thing is, when I followed up with my regular GYN, she told me that 1)I was almost guaranteed to have an abnormal Pap because I had an infection at the time and 2)The vast majority of women under 30 test positive for HPV anyway. So both of these tests may have just been making me worry for no good reason.
Regardless, the second doctor had me come back for a colposcopy to make sure I don't have signs of cervical cancer. Today she examined my cervix and took several biopsies and other samples. It was *extremely* painful. Beforehand she told me I might not feel anything at all, or that it might just feel like cramps. It was much worse than that. It felt like she was cutting me, which I guess she was, and the pain increased as she kept taking more samples over 10 minutes or so. I was trying not to cry, and I told her "It really hurts!"
Her reaction was to basically ignore me and keep talking to the technician -- the two of them kept complaining and laughing to each other about some internal office issue like the sample containers they were using. Only after she had finally finished did she say "Are you OK?" But she didn't really seem to care when she saw how shaken I was and told her it had hurt A LOT. She said "It'll only hurt for an hour, you can take some Motrin."
Now I'm waiting a week to hear whether or not the biopsies show signs of cervical cancer. She didn't offer me any reassurance about whether or not I could have cancer. I was so angry and feel totally defeated by today. It's 7 hours later and I still hurt too much to sit or walk around normally. Why are doctors sometimes such mean, unpleasant people? :(