Comfortable with my fat
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Today I made up with my best friend which I was totally excited about. I am super happy. And true to woman form we cried and in depth emotional convo. Now I love my bff to death and I trusted her and she is always honest with me and today she dropped a bomb on me about me. She thinks the reason that the reason I have a hard time losin weight is because I'm comfortable with my fat.
Huh???? I know right same thing I said.
She thinks that I am comfortable where I am. That i have been so self concious and just in a box for so long that I like it there. That my fat is now like my security blanket. I have thought about it all day and I think she is right. I am a shy person. I hate talking to strangers. Rarely go out and think that people are staring at me all the time. Now I know it is in my head but I can't help but think that way. So that means it's up to me to shed the blanket and step put of the box but it's so hard. Don't know how I am going to do it but I think finding the problem is a first step.