The beginning of being 100% and facing a bit of my past today.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
For the B2W (Balls to the Wall) challenge I am in, we were challenged to spend an hour this week doing a cardio that was our third favorite, so I did an hour on the elliptical machine (third fave behind running and spinning) this morning to get that out of the way.
I got a call last night from Nick (my prospective personal trainer). He talked with me a bit about what I wanted from him, and he then talked about how he is going for total body strengthening, but will be focused primarily on my lower body because I am a runner. Second will be core, and third will be upper body.
I told him I will only be meeting with him once a week for the beginning because I just can't afford more than that (he is $30 for every half-hour session). After the first month, if I am happy with my/our progress, I will continue on with maybe every 2 weeks for a while, and then go from there. I know I will be diligent with everything he tells me to do, so hopefully this arrangement will work for him, too.
Umm....Today, I am going down to Fargo for a meeting that will include a lot of emotions. It is an alumni night for gambling addiction treatment. I went through that treatment almost 7 years ago actually to this day (it took me 6 months, outpatient). I haven't been back as an alumni since I was pregnant. The meetings are every third Tuesday, which was always a Weight Watchers meeting, and I kind of treated WW as my meeting for my eating addiction and focused on that. I refused to miss a weigh-in with WW. SO, now that I am at goal and CAN miss the meeting (won't be weighing in anyway), I promised the coordinators that I would be there today. It is always good to have someone be there who has been in the program and has been successful since it is such a bad addiction for relapsing.
But, the point here is, it will be emotional seeing a few people who haven't seen ME since I was around 300 pounds, and then also reliving my gambling addiction for those who haven't met me, and then in between there will be potluck. Yeah. Potluck. Wanna know what I am bringing? Donut holes, because I'm cheap. The irony is not lost here, people. I am not having any (mainly because I snuck 4 last night)....also because now that I am going to be spending $30 a WEEK on a personal trainer, I really want to put my 100% into the results. My first session with him is tomorrow, so I am taking all my measurements today and 1 month from today, on April 15 (tax day!!!), I will be able to truly show progression in SOME form, be it numbers on the scale, on the measuring tape, on how strong I feel, on the changes in the mirror, anything, and I will know that I put in 100%.
So, here are the stats as of this morning:
Bust: 36DD (38D)
Natural Waist: 32
Waist around belly button (biggest area): 39
Left upper arm: 12
Let's see where I am in 1 month!