All is settled after the Neuro's visit. Smiles of Joy are plastered on my face like a love-sick fool. How dearly I love my husband !!! All is well at home. I was so afraid that when my husband came out of the neuro's room that he wouldn't want me, knowing even more that the prognosis is not positive. There is of course a chance of improvement, but one never knows the outcome of MS. The neuro tends to paint the gloomist of pictures. Most people studies have shown or a high percentage are able to remain ambulatory. Having it does not mean that your life is doomed. My husband is devoted to being my love through all times good and bad like the vows we made.
Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.
Today we went for a walk at the ranch. There was a partial rainbow melting in the sky with fuzzy lines and colors with storm clouds in the distance covering the mountains. Bits of blue sky peeked through the clouds and a brisk cold north wind chilled the air. There was one black omnious looking cloud that swirled in a rotational pattern. Pretty to watch but it made me wonder if here in California I was going to see a twister.
It was challenging to walk today, my legs were uncooperative and fighting the whole way against moving. It felt like they were encased in cement as we walked among the beautiful grove of pink flowering persimmon trees. The Canadian Geese were playing sentinel guards watching over a flock of specklebelly geese today. They don't like the specklebellys in there turf, yet they politely share the space watching quietly. The specklebellys like to group together in different locations when they visit. Today they were grouped on the pond. Other days they sit on the green grassy beach in front of the pond. The Canadian Geese are always there watching. Two on the water and two on each side of the group. I love watching and learning the habits of the waterfowl.
Meanwhile there are some small black duck that I never see on land, always on the water. There is an island in the pond, a rather large island with wild grasses and cattails growing around it. Some of the Canadian Geese have started nesting on the island and chase off others that try to come to there space. We have stood for a while watching the males chase off the other couples.
Today's walk was 2.25 miles. The journey was rather slow for me as the muscles weren't cooperating. My balance was off since my legs were stiff with spasitiy. It feels like the muscles are fighting each other. Like one muscle will say don't move while I am trying to make my legs move. At times I have to get the assistance of my husband's arm pulling on me to make the legs move forward. The rest of the time I hold on as I can't walk and look around me at the same time without falling over. This is typical of the walks lately. The muscle issues make the energy expenditure very high. When I was done walking I could not lift my legs into the car. I sat in the seat and my husband lifted my legs in. Like a Spark Warrior I continue to make progress towards my fitness goal.
Nothing in the world can take the place of Persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan 'Press On' has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race.
Calvin Coolidge (1872 - 1933)
I didn't have the strength today to do a DVD. The walk wore me out and most of the day I was rather ill with a GI bug that kept me in bed or on the toilet. It took quite a bit out of me. I realize this depletes the potassium in the body so I took some supplements today to replace the loss.
If I had to select one quality, one personal characteristic that I regard as being most highly correlated with success, whatever the field, I would pick the trait of persistence. Determination. The will to endure to the end, to get knocked down seventy times and get up off the floor saying, "Here comes number seventy-one!"
Richard M. DeVos
Tomorrow's plan is to do a DVD in the morning and a walk in the afternoon. I must get back to doing my barre workouts that strengthened my legs so nicely.
Subbornness is also determination. It's simply a matter of shifting from "won't power" to "will power."
Peter McWilliams, Life 101
On the last note. Would you consider taking a medication that gives you cancer and leukemia and other diseases? The shot I was taking causes these diseases and worse. The only other shots out there have even worse side effects.