Friday, March 11, 2011
I decided yesterday that I'm gonna blog each day (at least that's the plan), so here i am, excited actually to write this blog because it's only 8.30 in the morning and 3 great things have already happened.
First of all i gotta start with yesterday: I was tracking some food i ate, i had no plans to check out anyone from the community, i only tracked my food. Then i noticed a cute status message posted by teeny-bikini about Denzel, her...bike! :)) Well anyways, i checked out her sparkpage (i think the last time when i checked it out was when i added her as a friend, which was a long time ago), i read several of her blogs (and by several i mean the first 50 she wrote when she started this journey...) and i was amazed! She's been going through some tough s..t in the past and she didn't even want to talk about, she said onward and upward, no dwelling on the past, no whining just
and looking in the future
And it stuck me.
I am doing none of these.
I am not working hard. My excuse is the lamest ever: i'm lazy. Yes, i actually tell this to myself when i should go in the other room to do an aerobics dvd or work out on my mini stepper while watching a serial i downloaded: "i'm lazy right now". When i go down to the kitchen to eat (or i'm on the road all day and i have to grab something) i hush away thoughts like: i should choose the right stuff, not whatever i crave. It wasn't always like this. I've lost weight several times the right way with sparkpeople's help but i always stopped after 5-10-15 lbs.
I'm constantly looking at the past trying to analyze stuff, understand stuff when the truth is i already know what the deal was, thinking of it just lowers my self-esteem and doesn't seem to help.
And finally, i am not positive. I'm extremely negative. I don't even want to talk about this because it's gonna stop!
SO. What i'm trying to say is that teeny-bikini game me a big amount of positivity and motivation. Which led to eating a healthy breakfast, good mood and something i have never done: i woke up earlier this morning to work out. This is a revelation! It's true that i snoozed for 15 minutes, so i had to work out 15 minutes less, but i still did 15 minutes on my mini stepper (planned to do 25 minutes now and 25 after i get home from work, but with snoozing i only did 15 now but will do 35 after i get home, that's a total of 50 minutes). These 50 minutes will equal 500 calories gone, according to my Polar FT4 watch, which i trust!
I always said i'm not a morning person. But being a morning person ROCKS! I'm full of energy right now. I watched 15 minutes of a serial i like so that's good too, i know i already worked out, i'm proud of myself. Oh and after the 15 minutes i stripped out of my clothes, stepped on the scale and guess what? It showed weight loss! I weighed 76.9 kgs on february 15th, climbed up to 77.7 and then, this morning i weighed 76.8 kgs. Yes, i know, it's 0.1 kg (0.22 lbs) but if you compare it with 77.7 it's 0.9 kgs (2 lbs)!
76.8 kgs (169.3 lbs) is my lowest weight since i started on December the 9th with 79.7 kgs (175.7 lbs). That's 6.4 pounds lost which is not as much as it should be considering that i lost it in 3 months but it's something i'm happy for anyway.
I'm glad for this great morning, i'm glad for blogging, i'm glad for teeny-bikini, i'm glad for the positivity i feel!
Everybody, be positive, i start to get what teeny-bikini said: "I have to protect my mental state like my life depends on it - because it does!"
And the other thing she said: "Slower is better!" Because you learn more. Like i did.
Have a beautiful day everyone! Smile at the sun! :)