Thursday, March 10, 2011
I'm done with this fight. I wave the white flag. Stick a fork in me.
I have been trying and trying and I get no where. Life gets in the way, work gets in the way. I cant maintain enough intrest or desire to care what my body looks or feels like when I'm too busy just trying to survive life. And in the end what is the point? I know my history very well I will drop 20 to 50 pounds in the blink of an eye with no apparent effort then gain it back. All I get out of the process is guilt, frustration, anger and decreased self esteem and quite frankly life provides enough of that on its own. To everyone who was there when I had questions or a bad day thank you. Best wishes to all.