Thursday, March 10, 2011
I've done Sparkpeople before... I've tried to lose weight before, yet it hasn't worked out the handful of times I tried. And I discovered this about myself - in the past, if I didn't drink 8 glasses of water or missed entering my food, I felt bad about myself. If I missed work outs for two days in a row - even three! - I felt like a failure... not completely, just slightly. But each time a step was missed or a goal was set back these little feelings of failure would add up until somehow, maybe even subconsciously, I gave up. I convinced myself that I was too busy right now or that I would get back on track tomorrow.
Now I realize - I'm trying to change a lot of things in a relatively short amount of time! I'm trying to not only eat well, but cook more AND track everything I eat. I not only am trying to drink more water, I'm trying to drink 8 glasses whereas before I was lucky if I had 2! I'm trying to workout 6 days a week, when before I was not working out at all! AND I'm trying to finish reading the Spark when I never read a book regularly in my spare time. Though I'm happy to follow the Sparkpeople regimen, I'm realizing that I'm trying to change SO MUCH in my day to day --- if I do even half or a quarter of my goals everday, that's really something!
This time around I'm committed to being healthy and I've finally gotten a grasp on what I'm doing is a complete lifestyle change that won't happen overnight.
This morning I felt bad about myself for missing my strength training last night, but here I am at 7 AM dressed to do cardio before I get ready for work -- I don't know why I have a hard time celebrating and realizing the good I'm doing and focusing on the bad. But not this time - no no... I'm questioning my negativity every step of the way and am asking myself... Hey self, go easy on me. I'm trying to do a lot for you right now and if I miss something every once in a while - who cares? In the long run, you'll thank me for it.
Here's to not beating myself up!
Thanks for reading :)