Wednesday, March 09, 2011
Having trouble coping at the moment, too many things ganging up on me. Problems at work and at home, most of them outside of my control - I've done what I can to affect the outcome but now I just have to sit back and wait for other people to make the decisions...... :-((
Work have refused once again to let me take early retirement, yet I am achieving nothing being there, which is soul destroying. Everything is log-jammed behind one particular project which has major problems. Until that gets sorted out nothing else can be implemented. It's basically been like this for the last 3 years with no sign of an end in sight yet :-(
Having problems with the freeholder of my home who wants to do major building work which will cut out most of the natural light from my kitchen (amongst other bad impacts of their plans).
I desperately need to have a big sort out at home and get rid of a load of the junk I have been hoarding unnecessarily for years.
In the midst of all this, I know it makes sense to eat healthily to give myself the best chance of coping with it all, but it just all seems too much effort. As soon as the smallest thing goes wrong I am in danger of bursting into tears - not good. I'm not sleeping well, keep waking up far too regularly and when I do sleep my dreams aren't good ones. So I am currently fighting off the tendency to slide into depression, sometimes I think I am winning, other times I think not.......
Put simply....... AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHH!
Ps 34 v1 - I am glad verses of scripture don't wear out, this one is my lifeline at the moment.