Tuesday, March 08, 2011
Last week I weighed myself for the first time in about a month. I was SURE I was going to lose weight because I was working out so hard, and tracking my food.
I gained 1.6 lbs.
Yes, I notice my clothes fitting better. Yes, I notice the toning. Yes, I notice my endurance improving.
For some reason, I was still bummed.
In the same week, I had to cut back on the personal training because my free sessions expired. We can only afford one time a week for me to go. From now on, the plan is for me to follow this schedule:
Monday - 30 minutes cardio + abs class
Tuesday - 60 minutes cardio (elliptical + 5k training)
Wednesday - 30 minutes personal training + 30 minutes cardio
Thursday - 60 minutes cardio (elliptical + 5k training)
Friday - 30 minutes cardio + class (I'm thinking Zumba or BodyPump)
Saturday - Rest
Sunday - Rest / possible 5k training
I decided to skip the gym last night, so tonight I'm going to work really hard. My shins were bothering me from the weekend (LOTS of standing, walking, jogging, and no icing), but I'm going to hop right in tonight.
I saw some pictures that someone posted when we went out for a friend's birthday. I looked at myself and thought, "Ew." Why can I not get these thoughts out of my head!? I mean, I'm making progress! You can't necessarily see it on the outside just yet, but my clothes are getting looser. I wish my stomach and face would hurry up and shrink.
Next week is Spring Break, and I can definitely tell that I need the break. I'm slacking in my school work, and I'm feeling just downright sad/depressed and highly unmotivated. I was off my meds this weekend (forgot to pack them for out of town) and that is a big part of it. But I have also been feeling "off" for a couple weeks now. I finally shared that with my husband and my mom. I burst into tears for absolutely no reason yesterday. It's difficult because those close to me really don't understand depression/anxiety. I share a close bond with my sister-in-law, and so I can talk to her about it, but I don't feel comfortable sharing all of it. Plus, she's got her own family and life, and I don't want her worrying about me.
I need to hop off and get some studying done before class. Until next time!