Monday, March 07, 2011
To hell with this wishy washy up and down ridiculous roller coaster I have been riding for the past 9 or 10 months!! Seriously, I am over it! So here's the deal: I am a classic case of all or nothing, and when I say "nothing", I mean "NOTHING". I have made several attempts to get back on my "Spark Streaks", but when I mess up once....that's it!! Honey buns, donuts, lasagna, chocolate, ice cream...whatever I wanted. I justified it by saying "I'll start over Monday." That pathetic way of thinking has helped me gain 20 lbs of the 14 I had lost. Yeah, you read that right. I lost 14 lbs this time last year and have managed to gain that back PLUS another 6! Yay! I look back and realize I went 60 days non-stop without missing exercise. I remember how great I felt and exercise was almost some cult I had joined because it didn't matter if it was pouring rain....I was jogging! I am sooooo going back there. I don't care how bad I've messed up...forget about that. What matters is that I am back here, in an honest frame of mind, with all of you guys who are soooo awesome and helpful and encouraging!! I am making a pledge to myself here and now that for the next 90 days I will exercise NO LESS than 6 days a week. I will make healthy food choices and I will lose as close as possible to 40 lbs. I am serious. No matter what happens....I WILL NOT quit! For once in my life I am going to see something through 100% until the end!! I am going to buy myself a "goal outfit" and i will celebrate small "wins" on here with all of you! I feel better already!