Yesterday afternoon I became grumpy and easily agitated.
I did my knee shaking thing most of the day and was up and down a lot and very distracted.
I was aware of how I felt but couldn't pin point why until that night when my husband finally asked me, 'What are you thinking about that's got you so upset?'
The answer just POPPED to the front of my mind.
(now why couldn't it do that hours earlier when I was asking?)
I was nervous about failing at the 5K walk I had signed up for on sparkpeople!
It was so easy to explain to him...but why couldn't I get there on my own?
I found that interesting and frustrating.
I realize now that I'm scared/terrified that I won't finish this...it IS a month long.
In my mind, if I don't then it feels like everything will unravel.
Oddly enough, at the same exact time I'm super excited about doing it and was looking forward to the clock going off earlier this morning.
Even as I sit here to type this I have noticed I'm starting the leg shaking again. LOL I'm becoming agitated, nervous, anxious again.
Finishing this is really that important to me.
Fitness is not yet a true routine for me. I need it to be.
I've even posted a copy of the schedule in my bathroom so I'll see it every time I go in there.
I've got a seriously busy week this week and that's nagging at me as well. I need to get all these tasks completed this week.
I wonder if anyone else is nervous about doing the 5K???
I'm going to go calm down and prepare for work. :)
Have a great day!