Sunday, March 06, 2011
I'm struggling, I can't seem to make myself want to do anything anymore. I lost my husband of 31 years in January of this year, and nothing seems worthwhile anymore. My life seems like it is so strange now, I can't make sense of anything. I have trouble focusing for any length of time, my work is suffering for it and I don't know what to do to turn it all around. Why did this have to happen? I ask that question frequently, but I don't get much of an answer. I know that all things happen for good to those who love God. And I do love God, very much, He is the ONLY thing that has gotten me through this so far. I don't know what the answer is but I hope I find it soon. I don't like feeling like this and with spring coming, that is my favorite time of the year. I want to feel good enough to enjoy it.