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Better Day

Sunday, March 06, 2011

I'm down a little over 2 pounds from yesterday. I feel better. I had a good eating and exercising day yesterday.

But I really felt just sick about losing control. I need to handle it better. I don't know why I felt like it was a tragedy. It wasn't.

I guess it is just the reality that eating is always going to be a challenge for me. And even when I go 40 days eating almost exactly as I want, I will hit a rough patch. Guess I just need to accept it. It is part of me. I get almost cocky thinking I have this thing licked. And then I fall so far and feel so disappointed. I should neither get cocky nor disappointed. I can live at the weight I want to be. I just need to keep mindful about my eating; remember all the lessons I've learned.

I've said it often, but I mean it more than ever. I don't have to be perfect to succeed -- just determined!!
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    This sounds very familiar. It's great perspective. Sometimes I forget this is an addiction. I feel this is like an AA program with an awesome support system. We are lucky to have found it!
    2573 days ago
    Celebrate your 39 days! WooHoo!!
    2573 days ago
    "Eating is always going to be a challenge for me": and for me too.

    Not something I'm likely ever to "lick"! Although I like that image -- kinda like a slowly dripping jamocha almond fudge double scoop with waffle cone at Baskin Robbins?? Not gonna be licking one of those any time soon either . . . . *sigh*.

    Never mind: we are not alone. Success isn't permanent, neither is failure. And when we "fail" there are so many great people around to support us and help us.

    2573 days ago
    Congratulations on the weight loss and getting back into the swing of things.. You have taken a better attitude about it today.. Its always frustrating when someone can eat what ever they choose and not micromanage everything in their lifestyle and maintain a good weight, but we can't all be that fortunate, some of us have to actually work at it. My RA makes me slow to lose weight, but quick to gain it.. I do have to be careful and vigilent for the rest of my life if I hope to not regain this weight I slowly lost..
    Keep up the determination, you can do this..
    2573 days ago
    Marsha, Life is full of ups and downs; we all know that. Success is getting up when we're knocked down and you do that! Day 41 was a lesson, a test? If so, you passed with flying colors. You're back up and ready to go!! You are an inspiration! Keep sparkin', keep bloggin'! Joy
    2574 days ago
    You said it, now believe it and all will be fine
    2574 days ago
    Eating is my huge challenge as well, ugh! I've been reminding myself of something a sparkfriend said; we're here for progress, not perfection.
    Sounds like you've accomplished a lot! Pat yourself on the back!
    2574 days ago
  • MONTY68

    Hi Marsha
    I find your last 2 blogs very interesting. The reason I do, is what people that have battled weight problems for most of our lives, is the constant concern of eating so healthy everyday, that if for some reason we ate to much, or something with a lot of calories we feel a sense of failure. I know that for me, everyday I "make sure" that I stay within my range and all foods being healthy. My walking partner has a hard time understanding the need to track, to watch every little thing that I eat. She is my age, has never had a weight problem, doesn't gain weight and eats what she wants. I would say for the most part that she eats healthy 95% of the time. But if there is something she wants, she eats it. She has the awareness and knows that when she eats something that is full of calories. She just limits them. I guess the biggest difference is that food is not her main focus of life. I can only say for me, that eating right and the need to exercise is a great part of daily living. Life is not a automatic for me. For her, day 41 would have been ok, for us, we failed to eat right. I say I am living life, but as I said it is not a automatic part of living, of course it has only been 3+ years out of 71 years of life and I feel as we continue it will be more living it rather then having to think so much about it.
    You have done a awesome job on yourself, I see you as successful and a motivator for others. If there was a lesson in day for 41 for you, that is good, but just remember have well you do everyday.

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    2574 days ago
    Good call :) I think we're successful when we keep trying, because perfection just ain't gonna happen.
    2574 days ago
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