Friday, March 04, 2011
I have been obese most of my life. I have tried to loose weight several times, but then I would go back to eating what I wanted to and being "comfortable" with my lumpy, frumpy, sedentary self.
All my life I've been told I look just like my father. I have never seen the connection, but then again, I never look at my face in the mirror. Recently, I have reconnected once again with him. Seeing him for the 1st time in 11 years I was shocked into seeing what I could become. Laying flat (no pillow) on a specialized pressure alternating air mattress I came in eyecontact with a 350-400 pound 68 y. o. man. I had to visually divide his massive head into the 3 sections to find "his" face. It was 1:00pm and he had just removed his CPAP mask [He tells me he sleeps around the clock]. His neck is so thick he has trouble breathing and can barely bend it. He is unable to sit up without the hospital bed control. Even then, he can not lie straight in the bed because his massive abdomen prevents any bending. He still has his legs but he is not able to stand on them (His mother had to have her legs amputated three times). Anyways I am sure I do not need to describe his situation any further.
Everyone says my 12 y.o. daughter looks just like me. This scares me. I do not want to look like my father and I do not want her looking like I am now. I can't change the past but I sure can make a difference in what my (and my daughter's) future looks like.
Finally... my SPARK has been Ignited!