I AM, a woman on my last weight loss journey. I call this my last journey, because I have been doing this for way to long. Trying to keep on pushing to lose this weight, and pushing forward in everything I know. Doing me to the fullest, and not letting anything else stop me.
MOVE, GET OUT OF MY WAY.. POOF CRAP! BE GONE.
I WILL, no longer let the things of yester-day or yester-year control me. I must lock it down.. NIP it in the BUD and let it be what it is. You can't change people, you can't program them to think your way. They are set in their ways, and my way is living my life to the fullest. No more crap. No more drama. That's useless emotion wasted energy, and lost time dealing in stuff no one can fix or change. I can only fix my frame of mind. My thoughts and my daily status. I will walk with my head held high, and I will never sing a sorrow song of sweet low.... I love the blues, but I don't have to sing them every day of my life.
I MUST, do my part in getting what I want and what I need for myself. You got me or you got me not, but I'm saying this. I must have myself. I must have my own back. I must do the unthinkable to those, and the possible for myself. I must reach all goals, and allow myself the power to do them. I must allow myself the freedom to be who I want to be.
I SHALL, and I will do this. It's not about number as much. This is all about my health and my state of mind. I have lived in a bubble for so long. The bubble is.. WORK, SHOP, WORKOUT, SLIDE BACK, GET BACK ON, and try it again.. I shall keep my commitment, and do my best. It shall and it will be done. I am no longer looking for it to happen over night. Weight loss & mental peace. It's going to take time, but it will happen.. I will happen in my life. Maybe not today, and maybe not tomorrow, but it will happen.
On day 94 I had to go back over some old journals, letters, and comments I have gotten from friends and sparkers in the past. I even had to go back in time and remember all the good things people has told me.
1 good comment came in 99... We can't pick our family member's, but we can pick and choose who we let in to our lives.
2 good comment came in 07... You must fight for your life, and do what ever it is to kill the deamon root inside.
3 good comment came in 09... I know love does not hurt always, it only hurts for a moment, but when you start to love yourself fully.. Everything you touch is going to be blessed, because you are blessed enough to love yourself.
4 good comment came in 10... You are a very beautiful woman. Act like you have some beauty about you, and dress more like a lady, and stop wearing work clothes and workout clothes ever dangum day. LIVE FULLY... SISTER!
5 good comment came in 11... Do not give up, and do not give in, push to what you want and push past that. Just don't stop.
I am, I will, I must, & I shall...