Thursday, February 24, 2011
I've been having a hard time with my weight loss and workouts. I don't know what it is. I'm trying to eat healthy but sometimes I feel like eating all those sweet or fatty or salty things that are just sabotaging me. And as soon as I lose some pounds I feel like I don't have to watch out to much and gain it all back.
I feel sad a lot. I think about my Dad who passed away almost one year ago. Sometimes I just smell something or see something that reminds me of him and I start crying. Also I miss my mom so bad. She lives in Germany and I haven't seen her since last year in March before my Dad passed away. I've been trying to convince her to visit me when we move to Georgia so she can take a direct flight to Atlanta, but she's so scared to get on a plane. She's never been on one. She doesn't speak English either so she's worried about going through immigration at the airport. I hope she's going to change her mind. I need her. We lived in the same house in Germany and I was hanging out with her every day when Josh was at work. I miss having some coffee with her in the afternoons and to just do things together.
I wonder if that issues I have with my Dad's passing away and not having my mom around make me an emotinal eater.