trying not to deal with stress the only way I know how

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

I am not having a good day at all!! My espresso machine died yesterday which left me drinking regular coffee with skim milk. I've been drinking espresso daily for three years and the coffee just isn't cutting it. I am mentally stressed just from that alone.

Second I have the morning off work so I can get to my doctor for my quarterly med check. Guess what??? I was an hour late!! Somehow I put the wrong time in my calendar. Needless to say the Dr. was in a staff meeting so I had to reschedule for MAY!! Which I will now have to take another couple hours off for.

Third my mortgage payment is seriously delinquent. I am one of those unfortunate ones who has done everything to try and get a modification but does not qualify. I was given a trial payment some months back. I made all payments in full and on time. Because I was denied for a modification my timely payments were now considered partial payments!! So now I'm even further behind.

I finally worked up the courage to call the bank AGAIN to try and plead my case and see if there are any other options. I finally get a human on the line and he tells me that there system is down PLEASE CALL BACK IN HALF AN HOUR!!! My financial situation has taken a turn for the better and I could start making my normal payments again. It's scary though because the bank sent me a letter saying if my back payments were not made in full they would start pursuing the matter legally. I just keep thinking "should I just save my money for a security deposit on a new place" or "take the chance of sending the money to the bank and lose my house anyway". Rent in my area is more than my house payment. I really don't know what I'll do if I can't keep my house. I have one son who will be a senior next year and another boy in 4th grade. I can't move out of this school district.

I'm so badly wanting to resort to stuffing my face but I know it won't do any good and it will just make me feel worse. I can't go hit the treadmill because I have to leave for work very shortly. FML!!!
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    emoticon emoticon emoticon You are in a tough spot for sure and I wish there were some magic words to make this better.
    I don't know about your area but here the banks are working with people but it takes a lot of pushing to get them to the table at first..... I wish you the best and hope things resolve themsemselves positivly for you.
    2552 days ago
    Awww....sending you huge hugs. Very proud of you for not eating your way through the stress. I know how that feels and have fought very hard not to do that over the past month. Keep talking to the bank. Keep pushing. I don't know where you live but the banks in my area told my Grandma after my Grandpa died to make the payments, to pay a little bit more each month to get caught up, and as long as she were doing something they would work with her. I pray your bank is the same way. I hope you have a good day at work. Take a deep breath and believe that God will never give you more than you can handle. I know that is sometimes very hard to believe. I have struggled with it myself with everything my family has been though the last month. But one day soon your answer will come. Til then, keeping you in my prayers and sending big hugs to you.
    2552 days ago
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