Starting Now I'm Starting Over...
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
It's been well over a year, and I was supposed to be down by about 40 lbs by now. Instead, I'm up 10. My biggest set backs: my computer crashed (no more spark people) and I was working long and somewhat odd hours. Sure it was great that my office had it's own gym, but what good does it do if you never have time to use it? I'm not making excuses. After dropping my kids off at school / daycare at the earliest possible hour I barely made it to work in time to clock in, and usually had to pay late fees for picking my children up past close! By the time I got home everything was a rush... dinner, baths, bedtime, cleanup, walking to my own bedroom like a zombie to set the alarm clock and do it all over again.
Then something unexpected occurred: I became very sick. I was misdiagnosed as hypoglycemic when I was 17, and as it turns out, it's actually some kind of movement disorder. Grrreeaaattt! So, at my worst point, I was practically couch ridden. Everything was a challenge; walking, talking, standing, cooking, writing..... my life seemed impossible. I underwent months of testing with inconclusive results, tried multiple medications, meditation techniques, and all with minimal results. And when my second medical leave of absence was denied by my employer, I found myself without a job.
It's been a more than trying year, but in the end I have to consider all the things I am grateful for. Because of my well paying job, I was able to take our family on a vacation. I got to watch my boys splash around and zip down slides at a water park. My eldest son was able to ride his first steel roller coaster, and my husband and I were able to see one of our favorite bands. We were also able to pay off our car, so now that I am unemployed, we have one less bill to be concerned with. So despite the long hours and my failing health, we had a really great year, with intentions to make this one the best year yet!
My new goals: drop the weight I had promised myself long ago to lose, enroll in school, and do more one-on-one activities with my children. So long as I keep those goals, I have no doubt that this year will be one none of us will ever forget! : )