Feeling the Pressure
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
I have a very big project due in two weeks. In two weeks I demo the final product to the client and they sign off on it. I was given this big project back in November b/c the higher ups knew if I did it that it would be done right.
My problem is that it's not even close to being done.
It's been an uphill battle from the start. First, I had to learn a whole new programming language and platform to even start writing the thing. There are no specifications for the application, I basically have to comb the project manager's brain to find out how various aspects of the application should function. This means I hit gotchas all the time. I've had to rewrite pretty much all my code at least once.
Yesterday was a particularly bad day. I was at work until 8pm, and I just couldn't figure something out. I hate leaving work with something half done, and that's exactly what I did. For 5 hours I struggled with it and I couldn't get it.
I felt defeated and stupid.
I didn't sleep well last night b/c I was thinking about my problem and about the fate of the application. I have to be finish the app by Friday to get it fully tested. It's still only half done too.
I'm so stressed about this that I feel as though I'll cry. :'(