Tuesday, February 22, 2011
today i woke up at 5 am with the decision to find my paternal family if possible. I am adopted and found my maternal side 15 yrs ago. It took me 15 yrs to decide to open the next can of worms. So today went quickly. There is now an organisation starting a search for me as we speak.
In order to prepare for this search to be done I had to go into " the boxes".. you know the ones that hold profound and often moving memories. In this box was the first letter my birth mother ever wrote to me. I was 30. Also journals and photos of the kids and so on. This whole day had my head spinning and my emotions in upheaval and all I wanted to do was EAT..no... OVEREAT.. but I didn't. I told my friend Paige how I was feeling and then chose to go work out to a zumba dvd instead. It worked.. The workout was a bit strained as I wasn't in the best place.. but it was still a good workout.. Im now going to eat a reasonable meal and go out to listen/dance to some live south african music Good for me!