Monday, February 21, 2011
I am flying to Florida tomorrow. I will be there less than 24 hours. I am going to attend the memorial service for my real-life guardian angel who passed away from breast cancer in December. Long story short, I was not able to go to her funeral.
I am so relieved that I will be able to celebrate her in the company of others who adored and cherished her as I did. There's no way I can describe how much I miss her everyday. I am sure her spirit is floating around me somewhere -- simply because I feel it. Call me crazy, but I still talk to her -- out loud (a benefit of living alone!). It helps. Once (so far), she answered loud and clear -- in a way that no one but me would recognize.
The grieving part overwhelms me. Because I didn't go to her funeral, I could almost convince myself that nothing has changed. Silly? Yes. I know. Tomorrow is going to make everything so undeniably real. I have to just let it come.
I can't be afraid to cry. It will free my mind of sorrowful thoughts.
And life goes on......