Monday, February 21, 2011
I need pants for work, BADLY. I have to wear jeans too many times during the week and I don't feel professional but I only have ONE pair of dress slacks at this point and time. So when I was down closer to where there are retail stores (I live in "hickville"- not close to anything!) I decided I would once again try to find some pants.
I am a difficult fit. I am a petite- yet in women's size and that is not always so easy to find, even on line. So I spent an afternoon trying several pairs of pants (NONE that I loved, but I need pants!) and of course I am now INBETWEEN sizes so I can't by either size (I did find ONE pair, thank goodness) because it would be a waste of money. Any time I buy something a little small and say, "all I have to do is lose a few pounds and then these will fit"- I never lose the weight and it is a waste of money (and I think it jinxes me!). So I thought maybe I have to succumb to skirts or dresses. I rarely wear them because of stockings and tights are NOT comfortable for me at this weight. SO I took a few into the dressing room and BOOM... I am down a full dress size and I really liked two of them.. so I bit the bullet and purchased them. I hope I wear them! I now need shoes.... and I have to figure out the nylon,tight thing. But they looked good on me and were comfortable.
You can see why I HATE clothes shopping... it is such a drag and one day I dream of going into a store (one that is not "plus" size oriented) and try on anything and feel good.... Actually the event did NOT bring me down- it motivated me... Thank Goodness, many times after a difficult trip (usually because I can never find pants) I berate myself and start with the pathetic self loathing. Not this time.. I will look at the positive and wear my dresses with pride!
And one day I will have pants!! LOL!! Whatever....