Friday, February 18, 2011
Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.
QUESTION OF THE DAY: Are you remembering this important step? If you have not yet reached Step 10, can you see the value in conducting a daily self-inspection?
I have a daily 10th step that I submit to my sponsor and some other folks that keep me grounded...I thought the format might prove helpful to some of you so I've cut and pasted one that I did the other day below. For me, it's been instrumental in my recovery, keeping me honest, but also allowing me to feel my feelings daily.
Love in Recovery,
Daily 10th Step ~ Honesty at all Costs!
¥ I was abstinent today
¥ Got a great deal on some shoes for the kids
¥ My nephew helped make dinner
¥ Realized I do have a picture with my friend you passed away, made ma happy
¥ My kids had a good Valentine’s day
¥ I love my office
Was I selfish?
No I don't think so...
Was I resentful?
Yes, I was actually a pretty sour pickle today. My boss is annoying and I am on a board of directors with another woman who does NOTHING, and there were several times today when I caught myself talking about them behind their backs and I tried not to, but did it anyway. I thought about doing it 10 times and only did it 6…so it that progress? I actually tweeted to myself that I don’t have to constantly say what I think, but it only staved off my behavior for a minute. Tomorrow I will work hard not to be nasty behind people’s backs.
Was I dishonest?
I don’t think so
Was I afraid?
Initial thought was no, but in retrospect, I am fearful about a trip coming up after my conference…I’ll be gone for almost 2 weeks and I’m worried how my husband will feel when the rubber meets the road…makes me nervous.
Do I owe an amends?
No, not really, I mean guess I could tell the people I spoke about that I was talking trash about them and apologize but not sure it would help much. Truthfully I’m burning the candle at both ends and to hear someone (who is co-chair and does nothing) ask questions like “why don’t you just do this or that,” it makes my blood boil, so I pushed back…hey Jackie, could you go ahead and take those action items? I could tell she didn’t want to but finally agreed. I think there is a fine line between getting treated like a door mat and making your boundaries known…I’m still working on it.
Did I eat my meal plan?
Yes I ate a weighed and measured food plan…
What I had:
Breakfast: 2 nutrigrain waffles, ½ banana, 1 patty, coffee and skim
Lunch: 5 oz steak, 1 potato, 2.5 T reduced sour cream, tomato, onion
Snack optional: 1 ww cream cheese, 2 JJ flats
Dinner: 1 ½ cup stew with veggies, ¾ cup red beans, 1 cup rice
Did I exercise?
Did my physio exercises
My Plan for tomorrow:
Breakfast: oatmeal, berries, 1 egg, 1 egg white, 1 english muffin, coffee and milk
Lunch: 5 oz chicken, onion roll, onion, light mayo, 3 oz baked fries, tomato, lettuce
Snack optional: 1 ww cream cheese, 2 JJ flats, 1 tomato or cream cheese and celery
Dinner: 2.5 oz penne pasta, ricotta, mozzarella cheese, spinach and 1 pc lite garlic toast