I've been slipping into complacency. I am not gaining weight, but in the two months since I have come back from Christmas vacation I've only lost around 5lbs. I think this is because I have become really comfortable with myself. I am fitting into all of the clothes I have from "before" when I lost weight. I know I am starting to look good, and I am getting happy with myself. I am letting myself slip a little more often in the nutrition department. I've felt the back sliding ever since I came back from Christmas vacation, and it's scaring me.
I've stopped tracking daily. First, it was just the weekends I would skip, and that seemed to be working just fine, but on Valentine's Day, I made a recipe that I just didn't feel like adding to the recipe calculator, and I knew I would be eating it for the rest of the week, so I just didn't track at all this week. And without that keeping me in line...well, I stepped out of line. I used stupid excuses (I was sick with a headcold, I deserve this extra piece of chocolate. Or, it's my friend's Birthday I should let myself celebrate with her) to eat what I wanted instead of keeping myself in check. I knew last night after I indulged myself in not only a meal of pasta, but appetizers, drinks, AND dessert that the madness has to stop. I need to get myself back in check. I am less than 20lbs away from my goal. I've come too far.
So, I started by creating some accountability. I told my SO that I feel like I've lost my focus. I talked with him about how I feel like I am loosing control of myself, and that the lessons I thought I had learned just didn't stick in the face of my past behaviors. He was wonderful, and helped me make a plan. And now, here I am back at Spark, hanging my head asking you to help me be accountable.
My 14 day plan....
Go back to tracking every single thing that goes into my mouth. If I eat it, I track it. For the next fourteen days. This also means, get away from processed foods again, back to 5 freggies a day, and enjoying my food so I don't need to bust out by going to a restaurant and eating a ton of food.
Get back to exercising. I am going to start small it's the only way it works for me. Just 15 minutes on the treadmill every day for seven days, then after the first week bump it to 30 minutes a day for the second week. Track it. I want to get back to at least 5 hours a week like I was doing at the peak of my exercise.
That's just two things. The eating will be fine, but the exercise...yeah, I've been failzor with that, so it's going to take some effort. I need to focus again.