I can't believe it!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Don't know where else to post this except to my SparkFriends because #1 I know you'll understand and #2 some of you probably have some good pointers/advice.

In August 2009 I started a journey towards better health. I weighed 227 at the time and in 10 months had lost about 35 lbs. I even was selected to do a photo shoot and infomercial which was a blast.

In August 2010 I started seriously training for my first HM and Full Marathon which I completed, but along the way I started eating not as healthy. I actually started eating all the time.

I know as far as physical conditioning that I am in a lot better shape, but I have put about 1/2 the weight back on. I blamed some of it on the long distance training because I just wanted to eat all the time after long runs. Then the holidays came it and I just kept eating because I knew I had a long run coming up and would burn the calories.

I just finished a 15k race a couple of weeks ago with my best miles per minutes for a long distance race (longer than 10k), but seeing some of the pictures posted today I must say I am very disappointed that I let myself put the weight back on even to the point of being disgusted.

Well that's how I feel right now. I run 5k last night at a very strong pace and come home and late night eat extra junk. ARGH!!! I know what I am doing when I do it but for some reason just do it.

Anyway, like I said at the beginning just don't have anywhere else to post this where I feel people would understand.

Feeling a bit discouraged!
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    You CAN get a handle on this. I understand about wanting to eat all the time. I am in the same boat. What a crazy way to live.

    I agree with some of the other posts - eating is necessary but can also end up being a psycological excuse because of running.

    YOU CAN AND WILL do this!
    2590 days ago
    I feel your pain! After losing 30 lbs 4 yrs ago when I started spark, I've put it back on. But, I try to look at what else I've accomplished since then. And THAT is amazing!!!

    Maybe that'll help you!
    2591 days ago
    We all have setbacks. But today is a new day and a new start!! You have so many things you have accomplished. Take stock in your successes and look for habits to change to become a healthier eater. As with you, I am looking for healhy options that fill me up and supply me with the fuel I need for training. I am trying to stick with the "non-processed" type foods (fruits, veggies, nuts, lean meats) and avaoid the "whites" (white flour, white rice, white sugar, white bread). The longer I stick to it, the easier it becomes. As I write this though, I'm hungry and wanting a snack!!! We can do this!
    2591 days ago
    I really struggle with eating, sometimes worse than other times, and I think it's largely due to running. It makes me a hungry bear, but I think it's also a psychological thing - I think I can "afford" to eat more here and there, and indulge more than I should, because, hey, I'm running like a mad woman, right?!?!? Wrong. I just find myself getting into bad habits again, and the weight starts creeping up! When it comes down to it, your habits will make or break you! Maybe try to revamp your program, and aim to etch out and strengthen those good habits again... I know it's tough, but hang in there!!! You can do it!!!
    2591 days ago
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