Happy Valentine's Day
Happy "It's warmer week" around here anyway!!
Happy "Thanks for hanging in there with me" week also!!
I don't know what was going on in the world around me last week, but I am ready to move on. My cold is still here but it isn't as pressing or giving me as much pressure as it has been. I think it is finally breaking up and that is a strong step in the right direction.
I took yesterday off to rest and get a bit of extra sleep. We even had pizza for dinner last night (which probably explains a gain I had at the scale today. I didn't over eat and I didn't go over my daily calories or points, so I am guessing salt--quite honestly, I don't care about this because I needed a change in my world.) I made yesterday about taking care of me. I did clean the bathroom but left everything except some grocery shopping to the others around here. I cannot even say it is done, but THEY will do it today because today is also going to be about me. I am going to church and then the fitness center. After that is my time to go work on my National Boards and while I am there, my family will clean up the house, prepare dinner and do laundry. If that sounds a bit lazy to the other mothers in my world, please don't forget that my baby turned 13 a week ago and my other children are ages 15, 18, 19, 21, 22, 26 and 28. They are all in better shape than I am in and most of what needs to be done, they are responsible for creating.
I have no extra late work nights this week. I do have physical therapy twice and a doctor's appointment. I do have a crazy work schedule but I am going to put my foot down this week--I asked for an appointment with the principal in my school on Friday, but she either didn't get my message or didn't get around to answering it, I either need some help with the heavy student load I have or I am going to cut some kids loose. I cannot keep up with all that is on my plate with no support from anyone. I have to take care of me. My issues last week were a lot about me taking care of everybody and everything else and not taking care of me. Now that I am out from under the cloud, I am going to fix things. There is nothing good about being miserable physically or emotionally and if I can change that, well, sign me up.
I was sad, tired, angry, irritable, frustrated, overwhelmed, and under the weather last week. That is really lousy and I am simply not going to go through this kind of blue mood or dark time again because it hurt in every possible way. Nobody deserves such a thing. I know that I didn't and ultimately, the people around me didn't either.
So this week is already better because I can see where it has to go:
Things will be warm and sunshiny this week in every way and it will begin with me. I am wishing an equally warm and satisfying week to each of you as I bring down my work load and bring up my mood. I am wishing a happy Valentine's Day to each of you as I bring up my self esteem and bring down my pain. I have a couple of doctors who are getting a call and I am going to get the balance that I need to make everything work.
We cannot control the weather, but we can control all of these other things--I am going for it. Thanks for your kindness and support over the past week. It is so touching to read your messages of support and kindness and caring again and again--I needed them this past week, they were my shining star when I was under the most duress.
Have a wonderful week, each of you. I am going to try to get to each of you with a personal thanks, but rest assured that I need to take care of myself even before I do that--and I will.