Saturday, February 12, 2011
Perhaps the title holds more promise.. than solutions...
What is holding you back or has held you back - and... in that last case is no longer holding you back????
i know SOMETHING or some THINGS are holding me back
i'm not too sure what they are
but they are, because when i'm close to my goal, i fall back.
ok... i DO tend to have a ALL or NOTHING attitude:
. i'd like everything done NOW
. i'd like the weight to be solved YESTERDAY
. when i have a BIG task to do, i'd like to complete it in a few hours
all these STRESS me... and stress, or unreachable expectations, makes me eat, still. Bummer
things i DON'T feel like doing: haunt me, grrrrr me... - and somehow, i find it hard to make myself DO them, just get RID of them (because i see then as all or nothing BIG) - and get upset at myself when i don't
perhaps i should break everything down. every thing that has to be done
and allow down time.
and for what's holding me back???
have you been faced with that??
i'll do a Spark search with this..
and i'm going to try BALANCE. a bit of everything INSTEAD of all or nothing
***** EDITED HERE ********
While i was searching the 'what is holding you back' on Spark....
i 'may' have had a EUREKA moment... for me..
i don't know if it's going to be that helpful for Sparkpeople.. (because it may really not concern many people...)
I don't know if you remember Oprah's 'LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE'
Well... a. i LOOOOOOOVE Oprah... and b. i was brought up Catholic - and in my upbringing, it was like the OPPOSITE of the best life... as in:
think SMALL. Ok, think SMALLER. no, even smaller. is that truly the smallest you can think of? Well then, THAT is what you deserve, and be GRATEFUL for it. end of story.
i'm sure it has evolved (i much much adhere (and practice) loving fellow men, but not in a church going kind of way; in a daily life, and prayers going to bed, kind of way, so it may have evolved TREMENDOUSLY in church now, but, for me, from my chidhood memories, it perhaps may have been entrenched in my unconscious.
Honestly, i think i hit something there, because I CAN'T STOP SMILING since i've thought of that
Because, i DO believe we can ALL have ALL. I don't think there is limited amount of happiness available, or love, or dreams. But even if my WORDS and HEART think that, something was clearly holding me back.. and this may have been it...
I may just had my own Oprah AH-HA kind of moment :)
(i think Spark is opening me up :)
**** edit to the edit***
you may not believe me... but... i feel guilty... for the edit... (so i'm really onto something) (i'm afraid i'll be judged....)
ok, so i think i'm done w the edits :) (NO WONDER i don't blog more often lol :)))
have a nice w-e all! :)