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A different kind of journey


Friday, February 11, 2011

Where do I begin? How do I describe what is going on in my mind? I am trying so hard to be positive, stay positive and on track! There seems to be so many obstacles and so much stress.

I really want this to work for me. I want to get healthier. I feel sometimes like I am my own worst enemy. I am trying to stay strong. Thinking about the future, and all the fun things to look forward too.

Being morbidly obese has taken years away from my life. If we could only see what being obese is doing to our internal organs, maybe we would try harder, or sooner! Today I learned that morbid obesity is the 2nd biggest killer , with smoking at the #1 spot!

For many years I smoked ( sometimes 2 packs) every day. My diet was extremely poor, mostly junk foods. I didn't drink much water (soda drinker). I didn't exercise.... unless I walked to the corner store to get my next pack of smokes. And I drank alcohol often.

I6 months ago I took a trip to the Emergency Room. I had developed pneumonia (again) this instance came from the Swine flu. Cat scan was sent to my regular Dr. who later called me in to her office. She felt obligated to recheck me and fill me in on what she saw. dun dun dunnn.....

What she told me scared the hell out of me for sure! I quit smoking with Chantix. It was the only thing that really worked for me. I had tried Nicorette gum, and patches. They didn't really help me. My loving, wonderful husband quit smoking too! He quit cold turkey!

We both gained some weight, but am so glad we quit smoking! It is so bad for the body! In a movie, I saw first hand how lung cancer kills people. Lung cancer literally tortures its victims. Not a good way to go.

I just want to get healthy. I don't want to be morbidly obese, and I don't want to die from lung cancer. I am praying that it isn't too late to turn things around for my body.

Like I mentioned earlier, if I could see what was happening internally, I would have tried harder to stop hurting myself and my family .
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NEVERNOTBROKEN 7/15/2011 12:58AM

    Oddly enough that's about the same reason I quit smoking! I was in hospital with severe pneumonia & was in ICU/CCU for nearly 2 weeks. "Luckily" for me I had a fever between 104 - 106 for a little over a week so all of my detoxing was burned right out of me!
I smoked 1-2 packs a day for almost 25 years. I don't miss it. I haven't turned into one of "THOSE" non-smokers who complain and try to force everyone else to quit. Theirs is not my path. I currently live with 3 smokers but they do not smoke in the house.(We haven't in nearly 10 years so it's not a new thing.)

I think having such serious health problems was a catalysis to get me here, to get me working on being healthy. I kept thinking to myself how awful it would be if I got so sick again and I had to call 911. I though those poor EMTs. They would have to try to lift me. I can barely lift me.

I have been fat a long time, obese a long time, morbidly obese a long time and have been categorized as super morbidly obese for the last few years. I tend to cheer for the underdog, only now I've found that I am the underdog. I plan on beating this.
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GONNA_BREAKAWAY 2/25/2011 10:42PM

  Keep your motivators in mind. Keeping my motivations in mind helped a lot when I initially lost weight. Now I have to once again find what is meaningful to me...more meaningful than that sweet, salty,fatty snack or second (or third) helping. Stick with it! You can do it!

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BESCAIFE 2/12/2011 1:49PM

    Stay positive, everyone on this site is here for you! Do what you can, don't overwhelm yourself. Right when I started to make efforts to lose weight, I focused on changing my food habits. It wasn't until later did I focus on exercise, because I knew if I tried to start immediately on both, I would be overwhelmed and give up altogether. And treat this experience as an experiment, not a chore. It's FUN to be able to see what you can create in the kitchen. SparkRecipes is a great site that can help you find healthy foods you like.

And remember, you're doing yourself a great service. This first step shows that you want it. And you've already proven you have the ability to stick with life-altering changes. Quitting smoking is no small feat. :)

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JBLW2KIDS 2/12/2011 12:36PM

    Welcome to Sparkpeople! It is never too late to turn things around. Just one step forward is a step in the right direction. Good luck to you on your journey! You CAN do it!

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HNYBEEAUTY 2/11/2011 7:22PM

    It's never too late to start. Good luck!

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