What motivates me...
Friday, February 11, 2011
I just read someone elses blog by this title and it intrigued me... I thought.. hmm.. what motivates.. and I mean really motivates me? On days where I'm feeling a little rough around the edges I can come back and say "Oh yea!" So here goes..
1)My Kids. God I love them. I would give my life for them.. but dont want to throw my life away because I'm not taking time for me either. I want to grow old watching them, to be at their weddings, to hold their babies, to see that I've taught them (hopefully!) to be good people.
2)My Loving Husband. We both had a second chance at love, and God brought us together for a reason. It hasnt been easy and I'm sure it wont ever be. But I want to grow old with him. And I love watching him become more aware of what he is eating and doing because I am becoming more aware of myself.
3)Love and acceptance. I've come to the realization that a good portion of my life I've been chasing that feeling.. the feeling that I'm loved and accepted for me... not who I was or will be. But just for me. I want to look in the mirror and give that to myself. To not have to look for it, because I love and accept myself, because if I cant do that.. then how can others?
4)My Body. I'm 28... and have the body of 78 year old. No joke. And if feels like more medical issues just keep popping up. This past year I've added Asthma and two inhalers to the list as well as a torn knee muscle that gives me issues often. I want to be healthy. To have a body that works with me, not against me. And to get rid of some of my health issues.
5)The look of awe on his face. When my husband and I got married, it was both of our 2nd marriages. We had 3 children among us, 2 jobs and were melding families and households. We had a small wedding at a courthouse and no honeymoon due to time and money constraints. While the wedding was wonderful and I have such fantastic memories, someday I'd like to renew our vows in a actual ceremony. And sooner than that I'd like to go on a vacation together just him and I as a honeymoon. And on both of those occasions I want to see that look of awe on his face. The look that says "shes all mine and damn I'm the luckiest man alive". Dont get me wrong my husband loves me and I know it.. But there's that look ...
6)Stopping the cycle. I want to get healthy and teach my kids how to live healthy and active. that you dont have to measure food, and exercise drasticly. So they dont grow up on yo yo diets, not feeling good enough.
This is what motivates me... what I want.... why I'm doing this. What motivates you?